Oddly enough, after recovering from the shock of a college career, I feel myself expanding into a fuller person. That said, I haven’t been eating consistently, so all this expanding is in an creative/intellectual/spiritual direction.
Now two months out and promptly digesting college, I find the institution was an outside force inhibiting my personal growth. Granted, I had wonderful times with wonderful people while “pursuing my education,” but I felt the constant grind on my mind, on my nerves, on my heart as I shirked some work in place of sleep, little fun, and creative ventures in general. I can see where those principles most responsible for who I am now have stuck fast, as I gently reset myself back to whom I’ve longed to be.
Imagine: I now make my own occasions to read and enjoy deeply those pursuits, I broaden my palette with deep wines, lavender, and apricots as of late, and I challenge my spiritual foundations regularly, if only by living in the most homosexual community in the Midwest.
I love the life I breathed into my living room with a fresh coat of paint. I have become a compulsive flower snatcher on my regular bike rides. I rejoice in the extra shoot on my pumpkin vine and the flowers on my tomato plants. I talk regularly with my boyfriend of our newly sprouting wedding plans, photographers, and the vows we will take under fallen leaves sometime next year (not engaged yet, but soon! So soon!). I am a gourmet chef (when it comes to all things pasta/pasta sauce) for many travelers and friends that blow in on cool breezes. For the first time in a LONG time, I feel incredibly whole and give great thanks.
I wish the same for you all. Find your wholeness.
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